25 weeks

15 weeks left or 105 days!  Holy Moly!  Baby now weighs over a pound and a half!  According to my picture I grew a lot this past week... no wonder I was gaining weight like crazy last week!  Maybe I should start cropping my head out of these pictures... because I look like hell! All that nesting I did today took a toll! lol 

For fun here is my picture this week and a last week for comparison! :)

24 weeks

25weeks

Nursery developments

We picked up our crib this weekend! Hooray! We had a hard time getting it into the nursery and my poor husband... even though it was past his bedtime... took it all apart and moved it into the nursery, piece by piece and then put it back together for me! :) AND he moved furniture around for me too! All because he knew today is my day off and I was planning on doing some MAJOR nesting in there today. What a good hubby!

I spent 3 hours this morning reorganizing! We have been using our spare bedrooms as somewhat of a storage space. I almost have the baby's closet empty... just have a couple of things on the floor that I need to see what Ryan wants to do with. I also emptied that dresser in the corner which had blankets and sheets in it and reorganized our bathroom closet so everything would fit in there and the entryway closet so all the jackets we had in the nursery would fit in there! Whew! I am tired!  Oh yeah and I also placed the bassinet next to my side of the bed to see if it would fit and it looked so cute there I didn't want to move it back into the nursery! Lol

As you can see we have a crib, dresser,  a twin bed, bookshelf behind the door (there is a tiny nook there) and I don't know if you can see it but to the left is a swing. The only thing I have left is a changing table. It is going to go where the swing is and when the baby comes the swing will be in the living room.  I am thinking of ordering the changing table today... I saw on online that I really liked! :)  Then we will have all the big stuff that we need in there!  The next step is to figure out how to decorate those naked and empty walls!  Oh the excitement!  Guess I don't need to do it ALL today! Lol 

24 week appointment

Our doctor's apt. was interesting, but overall good.  Like I expected I gained quite a bit of weight since my last apt.! At my 20 week apt. I had gained a total of 6 pounds for the entire pregnancy... I have gained 6 pounds since then!  BUT that only puts me at a total of 12 pounds, which is in the normal range as far weight gain for 24 weeks, so the Dr. wasn't worried. Just told me not to gain 6 pounds every time she sees me! Lol

Baby looks healthy and happy and had a nice strong heartbeat!  BUT according to my ultrasound I have a low lying placenta. The doctor wasn't terribly concerned because she said it was still early and most of the time your placenta will move up as time goes on and you grow. The good news is we get another ultrasound so they can check the placenta!  I was excited about that because it will be nice to see our little man before he comes out and it will be even nicer to verify 110% that he is a boy! :)  IF our next ultrasound shows that the placenta is still too low and hasn't moved then we will probably get one more ultrasound before the baby comes and if it still is in the way, then I will unfortunately have to have a C-section. :( Eeek!  If the placenta is in the way, it will block the cervix and the baby won't be able to come out. So.. fingers crossed it moves and yay for an extra ultrasound! :)




How far along?: 24 weeks



How big is baby?: The length of a corn and a pound and a half!


Weight gain/loss?:  12 pounds


Stretch marks?: None yet... Hope it stays that way! :) The Dr. told me that my skin looked really good today! I was all excited!


Maternity clothes?: Living in my maternity pants for work and dresses when I'm not working! But still mix and matching maternity and non maternity shirts.


Sleep?: I have my good nights and my bad nights... but overall still fairly decent.


Food cravings?: Raspberries and steak. I love fruit. I eat more than I need to everyday! Lol.  Raspberries for breakfast, bananas, peaches, blueberry muffins, cherries... you name it! Mmm....


Gender?: Boy


Movement?:  When 22 weeks hit... I started feeling him like CRAZY. I feel him every morning when I wake up, it is like he is doing flips in my stomach while I am laying there trying to wake up! There are days where I feel him a ton during the day and other days where I don't feel him very much, but it is starting to be more consistent.

Belly button: Still an innie and stretching a little larger than normal.


What are you looking forward to this week?: We get to pick up our crib this weekend and I am going to start some major nesting in the nursery!

Body Pillow Fail...

Yesterday I thought it was about time to start sleeping with a body pillow at night. I knew it was time because I started looking forward to Ryan getting up  that hour and half before I do, so I could steal his pillow and sleep with it! Lol  (poor guy!) So I went to bed with the stupid body pillow last night.

I felt like it took up the whole bed, but I was excited to use it. That dreaded thing... I had terrible nightmares ALL night long! I would wake up and go back to bed and the nightmare would continue right where it left off! I am sure it is was just a crazy pregnancy dream... but I woke up blaming it all on the evil body pillow! This morning when Ryan woke up I kicked the body pillow off the bed and went back to his pillow! :) And for the last hour and a half of my night I had dreams about kittens and puppies.  So there.  Maybe I will just sleep with an extra pillow instead of the body pillow tonight! Lol 

AND Tomorrow we go for our 24 week apt! I can't wait!!! I am soooo excited to hear our little one's heartbeat again!  It seems like this apt has taken forever to come because we usually go on Mondays and this time isn't until Friday! Although I am a little nervous because I feel like I have gained sooo much weight since my last apt! I think I was at like +7 pounds at my 20 week apt. and I know I have really popped since then, but I though I  would be plus +12 pounds, but the scale says I have gained another 2 pounds.... so maybe +14!!! Doubling my weight gain in 4 weeks! Lol

Soccer Ball?

I got my 24 week update email yesterday and it said that my uterus is the size of a soccer ball. As a soccer nut and coach it makes me wonder... What size soccer ball?  Is it is a little kid's size 3 soccer ball? Or my size, a size 5 soccer ball?  I wish they would specify... I'd like to know! :)  So if the baby is the size of a corn and my uterus is the size of some sort of soccer ball... no wonder I look the way I do! :)

24 weeks

Here is my 24 week shot... I look a lot bigger than I feel! Lol I saw this picture and I was like whoa, I am huge! But I still feel pretty small! Don't know if that is a good thing or not?! Compared to last week, I look pretty much the same... not real giant growth spurt or anything like my 22 week picture! I will do my 24 week stats on Friday after our apt. so I can get an accurate weight gain... my guess is 11 or 12 pounds.. but we shall see. I can't wait for our 24 week apt! The doctor should have gotten the report from the ultrasound tech from our ultrasound, so I am a little anxious to see what she has to say about that and I hope everything on our little man is growing as it should. Until then... me 24 weeks preggars with baby Wags:

Glorious Sleep!

Ok I guess I spoke to soon when I wrote a blog bitching about my lack of sleep!  I just woke up from 11 hours of glorious sleep! I did get up once... just once... at 7 to let the pooches out and pee... but I went right back to sleep after that and didn't get up until 10!   Amazing!  Now to try to be productive after sleeping in so late!

All Hands on Belly.......

I forgot to post these awhile back, but I thought they were too cute to not post! :) 

Me with my sister in laws over the July 4th weekend! They touched my belly the ENTIRE weekend! So this picture was pretty fitting.

And this one is me with my cousin/God daughter for my birthday! We had just flown in from Dallas, so I look kinda poopy. But she was rubbing my belling telling everyone that it was HER baby! She is in the "mine" stage, but I thought it was funny!

It is funny how much your belly becomes a hand magnet when you are pregnant! I definitely don't mind my family or even friends touching my belly... but other people... well that is another story! Luckily I have only had one non-family member touch my belly... and it was sooo freaking awkward! Lol  It was one of my work supervisors, he works for a different agency than I do, but the bosses take turns managing the center that I work at. He LOVES kids (apparently) and he always asks me all about my pregnancy whenever he sees me. He randomly came into the center the other day and when we said goodbye, he patted my stomach... I was like Whoa! I mean, what do you do? What do you say?  He is a supervisor, so I didn't want to be like, umm don't you go there Mr.! Lol   Oy!  I imagine it is only going to get worse, the larger I grow!

What trimester is this??

Sleep has not been a friend of mine... I thought that wasn't supposed to happen yet?!  During my first trimester, like clockwork I got up EVERY night for the first 10 weeks or so to pee at precisely 3:00 AM. That went away for a glorious 12 weeks and now it is back. :S   

It started when we were in Dallas for the 4th. I thought maybe it was just the different environment that I was sleeping in that caused the change and when we returned home so would my schedule. I was wrong. Also another thing that has joined in during this middle of the night wake up is waking up completely parched... like I just stepped out of the Sahara Desert! This morning at 3:00 in the morning I was soo thirsty that I HAD to get up and get a bottle of water... figured I might as well pee while I was awake. Then of course I have a hard time going back to sleep.

I guess this is good preparation for a newborn, but I thought that whole having a hard time sleeping and getting up to pee thing was coming full swing during the third trimester.... what will I be like then?

I know I shouldn't complain, I have been very blessed this entire pregnancy with feeling VERY good.  BUT, getting up at 3 or so to pee, being not all the way asleep when Ryan gets up at 4 something,  letting the stupid dogs out to pee at 5 or so and then getting up at 6.... makes for not very much sleep the last part of my night.   And that is all! :)

DayCare?

Today I called the two daycares in town. Yes, I realize I still have 4 months before this kid comes and 3 months of maternity leave... BUT this is a small town with only a handful of childcare places that tend to fill up fairly quickly, so I thought I'd get a head start!

The thought of sending my child to daycare kind of stinks. I NEVER went to daycare and neither did Ryan.  His mom was a stay at home mommy and I was fortunate enough to live in the same town as my wonderful grandparents who watched me until I went to school. Unfortunately, we live in a town where we don't have any family. We have made some amazing friends here, but pretty much all of them work. And while I could feasibly stay home and not work... I have worked very hard at my career and after 8 years of working for the federal government, I JUST became a permanent employee this past February (ironically the same week we found out we were expecting!). I would hate to throw that away, I LOVE my job and federal jobs are VERY hard to come by.  So right now daycare is the best option for us. 

My boss has said I can bring my baby to the visitor center I work at. Which would mean I would only need daycare/childcare for 2 days a week... which makes the idea of sending our baby to daycare a bit easier! I am not sure how long I can handle bringing my baby to work, but I figure the first 3 months or so (before he starts moving around a lot) it will work out just fine. And because Ryan and I don't have the same schedule, even at the worst we would only need daycare 4 days a week instead of 5.

Any who, I called and compared 2 daycares today. I REALLY liked the first one, the lady was very nice and personable, they are VERY close to my office and super duper reasonable. The second place I called it sounded like every single kid in the entire daycare was crying or screaming! Umm... yeah that is definitely not a good sign! Lol   I mean I know we are going to have to go look at the place and meet the people before we make a decision... but based on first impressions over the phone... I would have to go with the place where the children weren't screaming bloody murder in the background!  I am waiting for a call back from the first place, because they have a waiting list, but the girl I talked to didn't know how long it was. Hopefully 7 months in advance will be enough time to make the cut! I am actually kind of nervous! I hope they call me soon!

Dance, Dance, Dance!

Last summer I started going to Zumba classes. I LOVED Zumba and went until I was about 8 or so weeks pregnant. Then I had that wonderful pregnancy symptom of sore hurting boobs and all the jumping about made me cringe. So I took a break. And you know what happens when you take a break from exercising.... it is soo hard to go back! It was also my soccer season, so I was quite busy, coaching, but after that was over I was scared to go back to Zumba because I didn't know if it would be too much for me. I continued to walk on the treadmill almost everyday, but that doesn't quite get your heart rate up like Zumba or soccer does!  My friend Caryn has continued to go to Zumba and I had a conversation with her a couple weeks ago and realized how much I missed Zumba.  I got the courage to try and go again two weeks ago... and I didn't die like I had expected! Lol.   Last week I took a break because we were on vacation, but I went back again this week!

I think I will continue to go once a week... I know it isn't a lot, but their times don't really mesh well with my work schedule, except for Mondays which is my day off!  I LOVE how I feel after Zumba and I have soo much fun dancing. Although, I am a little paranoid about what all the other ladies think of the big ole pregnant lady shaking her booty in the front row! Lol

Also, you can't read the shirt below, but I just got it from my old dance teacher. I danced from 3rd grade until I was a senior in high school, doing everything from, tap, jazz, ballet to country western clogging.... my favorite! :) I think I am one of the first of my dance teacher's students to have a baby. She was very excited when she found out that I was expecting! She went online and found a shirt that her mother had gotten her when she was pregnant. It says, "I should have danced all night!"  Lol. I wore it to Zumba today. I didn't know anyone there, so nobody said anything about it. Although, I did get a lot of stares, but that is pretty typical since I have a big ole belly anyway!

23 weeks

I think I need to clean my mirror! Lol  Here is my 23 week shot! I was nervous that I would have grown a bunch from last week... but I look about the same, just a bit rounder! I feel like I've gained a lot and feel a lot bigger.... but the pictures don't lie! Lol 

This week the baby has hit the 1 pound mark! While momma has hit like the 11 or 12 pound mark! Ha!  I have been feeling my little man wiggle a LOT! I love feeling him move! My favorite time is the morning when I wake up. He seems to just be moving all around in the morning and I love just laying there feeling him!

We go for our next ob appointment next Friday, which I am excited about. The Dr. should have all the information from our ultrasound so it will be interesting to hear what she has to say. I think I only have one more 4 week apt. with her and then I start going every 2 weeks... already! I can't believe how fast this is going!

Here's the Kicker...

I swear once I hit 22 weeks it was like all of a sudden I could feel the baby A LOT. Maybe he hit a growth spurt, bulked up some or just changed positions, but whatever it is I love it! :)  I still feel him more during the morning when I am waking up, but it seems like I can feel him a lot more now. And last night I felt him kick from the outside! It was the first time I have ever felt him kick from the outside!  I can't wait to start feeling him more and for Ryan and our family to feel him to!

Mile Marker for baby Waggoner : 22 weeks... first kick felt from the outside! :)

And We Have a CRIB!

Well, not quite yet... but the process has started! My fabulous Aunt and Uncle didn't need their crib anymore for our beautiful God-Daughter, Bella because she now has a big girl bed. My mom worked out a deal with them and we will soon have a very nice Baby Appleseed Davenport crib in our nursery!  Not to mention all the other things they are giving us that they no longer need for Bella, we are very lucky to have such amazing family and friends willing to give us anything that they can for our little bundle!

22 weeks

I think it safe to say I grew a lot this week. I wonder how large I will end up... it is a scary thought, actually! Lol

For Fun... here is last week's picture and then this week's picture so you can laugh with me how much I grew in one week! :)

26th Birthday

I woke up on the morning of my 26th birthday to a baby wiggling and squirming within my belly. If that isn't the best birthday present I could have ever asked for, then I don't know what is! :)  Of course reality set in quickly when the dogs had to be let out and I realized one of them... or both had peed a river in our laundry room and the cat also had an accident! Lol.... Happy Birthday from the animals!

I had the best birthday weekend. We went to Dallas to visit Ryan's dad, step mom and sisters. I got some great outlet shopping done... at the Coach store! :) Got myself a birthday present purse and a diaper bag that was 80% off! :)  Score one for me! I ended up with 2 purses (one for my mom for her birthday next month) and the baby bag, all for the price of one bag from the Coach online store! :)   I got treated to an amazing pedicure... since it is getting harder and harder to reach my toes by the day!

I am pretty sure my belly has never been touched as much as it was this weekend. My sister in laws were ALL over this belly!  I got poked and prodded and kissed... you name it. But perhaps the cutest thing was the girls talking to the baby. Rebecca started it by going up to my stomach and introducing herself. She said, "Hi baby, I am your Aunt Becca and i am your favorite Aunt" Of course Katie couldn't let that slide so she ran over and said, "No I am your favorite Aunt and I am your Aunt Katie!" Lol That went on all weekend and I thought it was hilarious! :)

I am soo glad that we got to see the girls and that they got to see me pregnant... it is like part of the process of creating their little nephew and I love how much they already love him! :) I have a bunch of pictures... but still need to upload them and go through them!  And I still need to take my belly shot for the week... Guess I will be back later!

21 Weeks

Baby is 3/4 of a pound and 10 1/2 inches long!

Hello Heartburn!

Just the past 2 weeks I have noticed a yucky pregnancy symptom.... the evil heartburn!  I don't believe I have ever had heartburn before and it is gross! During my first trimester I got evening nausea. I was very fortunate that I didn't ever throw up... but nausea and heartburn are VERY different. I guess I should be very thankful if this is the worst  of my pregnancy symptoms!

The number one thing I have learned that causes me heartburn is tomatoes, I guess because they are soo acidy. This is a huge bummer because I am Italian and LOVE pasta and pasta sauce and tomatoes. Another bummer is that I live in New Mexico where our favorite snack ever in the whole world is chips and salsa.  Sauce and Salsa cause me lots of nasty heartburn. That is ok though, because there are other things that I LOVE to eat that don't cause me heartburn... like raspberries and steak! :) Lol  I could eat steak every night. If only steak wasn't soo damn expensive!

I think I'm in Love

I cannot believe how much I love this little guy and I haven't even met him yet. It is just surreal. I never imagined I could love someone soo much before I even laid eyes on him. Ever since our ultrasound I have been completely smitten. His pictures are the background on my computers and the wallpaper on my phone. I love staring at him and trying to make out his features and imaging what he will look like. I can't wait to see him for the first time. I wonder what he will look like and who he will look or act like more.

It sounds crazy, but I am already looking forward to long nights awake just staring at him.
Sigh... I feel like he already has me wrapped around his finger and he isn't even here yet... imagine how smitten I will be when he gets here! :)

The Name Game

To Tell People your baby's name before they are born or not to tell people your baby's name before they are born. That is the question.

I have heard many sides to this debate and yet I still have no idea where I stand with it. I would love for everyone to know the name we pick out for our son, but I also don't want to hear people tell me that it is a horrible name or they knew someone named that who was a total looser.... because lets be honest, that is going to happen. But I guess if you just stick with that name no matter what, is it really going to matter what every else thinks? And there is a chance they might still tell you all of those things even after you have your kid.

That being said, no, we have not officially picked out a name. Although I think we probably have it narrowed down to two and I have a pretty good feeling which of the two it will be. Whether we decide to share that info... I have no idea. Maybe we will keep it on the DL and just tell our family and keep it a surprise from everyone else? But I will be buying cute little wall art with his name on it... whatever it will be.... to hang on our wall. :)

Going overboard?

Ok... soo I have been waiting to find out what I was having for what seems like forever and now that I KNOW I want to start shopping! I think Ryan thinks I am crazy! Lol

But can you just melt with me over these two things? Please?

THIS bedding from Target :

http://www.target.com/DwellStudio-Target-Blue-Baby-Bedding/dp/B0042F2NMM/ref=sc_ri_3?ie=UTF8&node=671344011

With THESE hand painted wall letters:

http://www.lovellabowtique.com/item_773/Brown-and-Green-Polka-Dot-Custom-Hand-Painted-Wall-Letters.htm

Oh my! Isn't that the cutest thing ever! Oh man! I WISH we had a name so I could buy the wall letters! Lol So I took a break from bedding and decor searching and went to some baby name websites and tried to force Ryan to look at them too. He kept saying we have plenty of time. Sigh... All I have to say is these cute wall letters better be ordered and hung on the wall before this kid gets here! Lol

20 weeks

How far along?: 20 weeks
How big is baby?: The length of a banana.
Weight gain/loss?: I have gained 6 pounds
Stretch marks?: None yet... Hope it stays that way! :)
Maternity clothes?: All of my pants I am wearing are maternity, but I am still mixing and matching tops and living in non maternity dresses.
Sleep?: I am sleeping very well! My first trimester I got up to pee a lot, but this second trimester I sleep like a rock all night long!
Food cravings?: Still craving raspberries... anything and everything raspberry, especially fresh raspberries! But I also have been really enjoying eating steak...
Gender?: BOY!
Movement?: Finally started feeling movements the past couple weeks. I SWEAR I felt a kick last night when I was laying down trying to sleep with my hand on my belly! After seeing the baby on the ultrasound today I couldn't believe how much the baby moves around and how little I still feel. But I know that will change!
Belly button: Normal, but kinda sensitive. Ryan has been teasing me soo much about my belly button popping out, but it is a super innie so I don't think it will... but right now it is still an innie, it is just kind of sensitive.
What are you looking forward to this week?: Telling everyone that it is a boy! Shopping and looking for boy stuff and feeling him move and hopefully Ryan feel him soon too!

And I decided to nix the weekly dress pictures, because I feel soo huge in clothes, especially baggy dresses and not as big when I wear other things. So I decided I would wear something more fitted for my weekly pictures so we can really tell how I am growing.

Its A......

Healthy Baby Boy! :)


Even more exciting than finding out that it was a boy was finding out that he is totally healthy and growing as he should! Two arms, two legs, Nice big head, eyes, nose, ears and a healthy steady heartbeat with 4 little chambers! Oh what a beautiful sight! :)

Happy Father's Day!

We had a busy weekend with Ryan's cousin's wedding in Albuquerque and Father's Day! It was a beautiful wedding and we had a great time with all of our Family! I was even able to see some of my family that I hadn't seen in awhile, my Uncle Andrew's family and his adorbale kids Ava and Dominic! We also go to have a nice Father's Day lunch with my parents and Ryan got his first Daddy's day cards and a small present from me! I gave him some Dallas Cowboys onesies that were pretty neutral in color, since we don't know yet what we will be having .... but we find out TODAY!

And here are some pictures from our weekend! :)

19 weeks

I took this picture late... but here is the dress that I plan to wear for Ryan's cousin's wedding this weekend. It looks ALOT different from the last time I wore it! Lol

Sorry I didn't write this week! But I promise next week will be better! Especially since we have our BIG ultrasound in 4 days! I have been feeling some movement... but it is very slight. Fluttering and some little flicks every now and again! That is neat. I thought I would be able to distinguish it more from like every day stuff, but I really have focus on it and there are a bunch of times, where I am like, I felt something, was that the baby? Anywho, we have a busy weekend with a family wedding and father's day. But we will take a bunch of pictures, I'm sure and Monday at 2:30 is our apt! :D

18 weeks

I feel HUGE, but I know I still have a LOONG way to go and compared to 5.5 months from now I am probably pretty small! But I guess because this is the biggest my stomach has ever been it feels pretty big! It is actually pretty cool though. Society makes you want to have a perfectly flat stomach. You spend soo much time trying to get your stomach flat and sucking in your gut any chance you get. This is one of the only times where it is ok to have a big belly! So I am embracing this! Lol I love having a little belly! :)

2 out of 3 aint bad!

Just got back from the hospital to get some blood work done. The first time I went to the hospital, it literally took like 10 minutes. Checked in, got my blood work, done. The second time... not so much. It took forever to check in, the order from the doctor was wrong and they had to contact them. Then at the lab they said the doctor sent the wrong order and they couldn't get ahold of them. It took a good 2 or 3 hours! I went in today, my day off... expecting to wait a couple of hours and I was in and out in 15 minutes! :) So, you know, 2 good visits out of 3 isn't bad at all!

The bloodwork they did today was for some scary test to see if the baby is healthy. I believe they are testing for signs of down syndrom and something else. The doctor said the test has a high false positive rate, so not to get alarmed and if it does come back positive it will just mean more ultrasounds. So now we play the waiting game! I imagine if it is positive I will know sooner than my appointement that I have in 2 weeks! Lol

Oh yeah and speaking of that apt.... 2 weeks until we find out if we should buy pink or blue!

Chalk another one up!

I never thought I'd be excited about gaining weight! Lol I went to my 16 week appointement and was a little shocked that in 4 months I had only gained 3 pounds! I thought that sounded sooo low. The doctor wasn't concerned at all so I tried to brush it off. But, I climbed on the scale this morning and I was happy to see I had gained another pound! Lol So now I am moving into my 18th week with 4 pounds instead of 3 :)

2 week comparison

I know I've posted both of these pictures... but I think this 2 week comparison is crazy! I seemed to have just popped between 15 and 17 weeks! Plus I don't like my 16 week picture (thinking about deleting it lol!). So here is my comparison from 15 to 17 weeks. Grey dress is 15 weeks and Green dress is 17!

17 weeks

I can't believe in 3 weeks I will be half way done with my pregnancy! Amazing!

16 weeks and showing

I got asked for the first time this week, if I was pregnant. It was by one of the soccer players on my team. AND one of the parents said her daughter told her a couple weeks ago (only like one or two kids knew the whole season and for the most part didnt' say anything). She didn't believe her daughter, but told her they would wait a couple weeks and see. Lol Surprise surprise tournament time came around and the mom told her daughter she was right! I officially LOOK pregnant. I think it is mostly because I was wearing a tighter shirt for most of the tournament, but I have definately started to pop out!

I took pictures with my teams after the tourney and YUP, definately have a big ole bump. I keep looking at the pictures and thinking how in the world have I only gained 3 pounds, I look HUGE!

I must say, it is kinda weird having a bump. I mean, before I definately did not have a flat stomach, BUT I used to be able to suck most of it in. Now I try to suck it in and it doesn't move more than a cenimeter! Lol I know it is only going to get bigger, but for now from my perspective it still looks suck-in-able and when it doesn't it just kinda makes me laugh.

16 week appointment

Had our 16 week appointement today! :) Heard the heart beat. It still amazes me! It is soo loud, strong and fast! Such a beautiful sound! Then we heard something else and the doctor was like, Oh! She said it was either a kick or a flip! Soo neat! I still can't believe that this is happening. I guess that is why they call it the miracle of life because it truly is a miracle to think that is where we all came from. When I first found out I was pregnant the baby was the size of a sesame seed... now an avocado and in 5 months... a 5-8lb. baby!! Amazing

Anyway, we go in for our next apt and our BIG ultrasound where we get to find out the gender on June 20!! Yay! :)

Postponed.... until tomorrow.

Today was supposed to be our 16 wk. appointment. but just like our very first apt. my doctor was delivering a baby and had to cancel. The price you pay for a doctor that delivers babies. At first I was mad, but then I realized if I was having my kid in the middle of the week I would want my Dr. there and not taking all of her appointments! So our apt. is now tomorrow at 2:00. Can't wait!! :)

A Look back at my 1st trimester

I thought it would be a neat way to look back and remember what and how I was feeling during my trimesters. So, while I can still remember:

My 1st trimester was probably the most exciting and nerve wrecking time of my life! I will NEVER forget the day I found out I was expecting and how in shock I felt. I kept waiting for some sort of sign that would prove to me that it was real. That didn't happen until the first ultrasound when we got to see the baby and the most beautiful sight, the heart beating. It only got better when we got to HEAR the heartbeat. Amazing.

Some stats:

1st trimester : Gained 3 pounds
Craved: Raspberries... and ate them EVERY day
Sickness: Not really, nauseous in the evenings or after a big meal, but did not throw up ONCE! (knock on wood!)
I felt: Lots of stretching and cramping as things moved around and grew in my stomach. I also started feeling definate boy vibes and think this baby is a boy.
Scariest part: Hoping everything went well with the pregnancy and telling people... I had a hard time telling people.

16 weeks

I was going to wear the same dress every time I took pictures... but I was washing my grey one today and was wearing this dress... so I took pictures wearing this one. I don't know if it is the dress... or what... but I think I look A LOT bigger this week than last week! Maybe I will go back to grey next week and we can compare.

16 weeks

I cannot believe I am 4 months pregnant! Wow. Time sure flies when you are having fun! I go for my 16 week apt. on Thursday and I am hoping that is where we will schedule my next ultrasound. I can't wait to hear our now, little avocado's heartbeat again.

I feel like we are in this scary time of a pregnancy still, even though we are out of the first trimester. It is the time where you can't feel the baby move and you are still kind of small so you just have to have faith that everything is growing and doing as it should and wait 4 weeks to verify that heartbeat is still beating strong. I can't wait until I am bigger and can actually feel the baby move! Then you know everything is ok, because they are there and you can feel them.

Anyway, I will post a 16 week picture later today and I will of course update after our apt. on Thursday!

Oh Boy.........

I have been getting BOY vibes throughout my entire pregnancy. Whether it actually is a boy or not, I have no idea... but it is just wierd. Only boy names pop out at me. Only boy bedding and stuff pop out at me. I catch myself not even looking for girl names or girl things. I wonder if all these boy vibes are accurate?!

I have done all kinds of wise tails predictor things online and everything so far has said boy...

I never really imagined having one gender over the other. So I really never had a preference either way. Although now that I have myself like 90% convinced it is a boy, it is kinda sad cause I keep thinking of all the cute girl things I might miss out on and what if I NEVER have a girl?? But then I see a commercial with a cute baby boy or a picture of a cute little boy and I think about all the little momma's boys out there and that kinda melts my heart! lol We probably have like another 5 weeks or so until we actually find out, but it seems to be consuming my mind lately! Mosty cause I want to start shopping already!!! :)

15 weeks

So I always thought I would be one of those crazy people that would take pictures every week so I could see the growth of my belly throughout my pregnancy.Well.. then I got pregnant and I got lazy and haven't taken a single picture. But since I have been starting to get a bump I thought I might as well start my picture gallery. So, here is my 15 weeks picture. I plan on trying to wear the same thing in every picture, so you can really tell the difference. Which works well for me because I LOVE this dress it is the most comfortable thing I own right now! :) If only I could wear it to work! Lol

Worry Wart

I am a self professed worry wart. I worry about everything... all the time. It is just the way I am, I can't help it. I am on this forum with all these other ladies who are also due in November. They have been posting pictures of their bumps and it is making me very self conscious that my bump doesn't look like their bump! I know it is silly.. but I can't help but fret over it. Everyone's bump looks all round and cute and I feel like I don't really have a bump compared to theirs and what I do have isn't round and cute. This of course makes me worry that maybe something is wrong. What if I am not growing like I should or the baby isn't growing well. I know this is silly, but I think that because I dont FEEL pregnant that I am constantly looking for some sign that I am actually pregnant. (The fact that I haven't had a period since January and that I don't fit into any of my clothes isn't a big enough clue I guess...) I can't wait until I can FEEL the baby!

Also I go to the Dr. on the 26. I believe it will be similiar to last time, really quick and just checking the heartbeat. BUT we should be scheduling our next ultrasound that day... the big 20 week ultrasound where they do the anatomy check and will tell us the gender! :)

Ok that is all I have! Off to try not to worry!

And we have a bump!

I have definately noticed that I am popping out a bit more and this weekend Ryan even, said it just seems like it happened just this week!

Hello MAY!

I just ate 2 pickles. I never eat pickles. I just ate 2. Yesterday I went to chuch with a rubberband securing my jeans together. Hello May!

Nesting?

(Warning: I put links in here on the bottom, but I am a looser and have no clue how to make them actually links, so you have to copy and paste them if you really want to look at them.)

Last weekend Ryan wanted to rearrange the bedrooms because he wanted to see how the beds and everything would fit. We originally had two twin beds in our one spare bedroom and nothing but a desk, bookshelves and a filing cabinet in our office spare bedroom. We decided to split the beds up. Keep one bed in the baby's room and move the other bed into the office. We had to totally rearrange the office and get rid of a bookshelf, but it looks good... but not as good as the baby's room! Which we have determined is much bigger than the office room. We don't have a crib or anything, but we put our family heirloom bassinet in the spot where the crib will go and I literally go into the room everyday and look at it! Lol My amazing next door neighbor actually already made us a diaper cake so we have the diaper cake and the bassinet as our only baby things, but it is still fun to look at and invision what it will be.

Speaking of thinking about what it could be... I got bored today and already started looking at crib bedding! I know, I am ridiculous, but its ok! :) So for a girl I have always loved pink and brown. Not too much pink so it looks like a bottle of pepto, but a nice subtle pink. And for a boy... I had no clue, but in my online searching today I kept finding myself leaning towards polka dots for a boy. So this is what I got.

Girl - (It is the website for the crib, but I like the bedding and the bedding website was worse. :) ) http://www.target.com/Avington-Crib-Toddler-Rails-Tobacco/dp/B002RNMKLK/ref=br_1_2?ie=UTF8&id=Avington%20Crib%20Toddler%20Rails%20Tobacco&node=2742717011&searchSize=30&searchView=grid3&searchPage=1&sr=1-2&qid=1304309392&rh=&searchBinNameList=subjectbin%2Cprice%2Ctarget_com_primary_color-bin%2Ctarget_com_size-bin%2Ctarget_com_brand-bin&searchRank=pmrank&frombrowse=1

http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/178-4684125-4665132?asin=B001P77U46&ci_src=14110944&ci_sku=B001P77U46

Boy - http://www.overstock.com/Baby/Blue-Polka-Dot-9-piece-Crib-Bedding-Set/5298467/product.html

http://www.target.com/Tiddliwinks-Cozy-Blue-Crib-Bedding/dp/B003ZKESDW/ref=br_1_27?ie=UTF8&id=Tiddliwinks%20Cozy%20Blue%20Crib%20Bedding&node=2245094011&searchSize=30&searchView=grid3&searchPage=2&sr=1-27&qid=1304309754&rh=&searchBinNameList=target_com_gender-bin%2Ctarget_com_category-bin%2Cstyle_name%2Ctarget_com_primary_color-bin%2Ctarget_com_character-bin%2Cprice%2Ccollection_name-bin%2Ctarget_com_brand-bin%2Citem_styling&searchRank=pmrank&frombrowse=1

So I guess I was wrong...

You can tell I'm a newbie at this whole pregnancy thing. My first trimester is totally not over! Lol But it is close to being over! So you can disregard that post about the first trimester being over! Although I still feel pretty good considering my Dr. told me that once you hear the heartbeat your chances of a miscarriage goes down to less than 5% so that is pretty comforting. Just thought I'd say I was wrong! :) That is all!

Are you fat yet?

I love my Sister-in-laws soo damn much! Growing up as an only child, this whole having a sibling thing is kind of new to me. But when I met Ryan his sisters were very young. So in a sense I have kind of seen them grow up and we are very close! I really don't know what I would do without them!

Anyway I just got off the phone with them and I had to share a funny conversation we had! The past couple weeks Katie has been asking me if I am fat yet. I got mad at her and said she can't call pregnant women fat. So on Easter she asked me if I was fat yet or if I was still skinny. She said I couldn't get mad at her because she asked if I was fat yet or still skinny so she was kind of giving me a compliment if I said I wasn't fat yet! Lol She is very medical savvy and wants to become a nurse someday. So I sent her an email with the breakdown of how much weight women are supposed to gain and where it goes. So she knows that we aren't just getting fat! She emailed me back and said she would never use the word fat again! Lol. So I just got off the phone with her and she was totally cracking me up. Instead of saying gaining weight or getting fat. She kept stopping herself and would instead say, gaining nutrients. The whole conversation she would say, when you are big from ugh... gainging all those nutrients or when you get fat... i mean get full of nutrients! Soo funny! I just had to share!

First Trimester is OVER!

I have been waiting for this 12 week mark for a very long time! It seems to have really flown by, but I still can't believe I am in my second trimester! How crazy! I wonder if the rest of this pregnancy is going to fly by just as fast?!

So this week baby is the size of a lime! A freaking lime! When I first found out it was the size of a sesame seed! I can't believe how much it has grown!

I feel like I am starting to pop out a little bit. I think it is definately worse in the evenings. I am still wearing all my pre-pregnancy clothes, but I am noticing my pants are getting a little tight. I wonder how much longer I will be able to go without wearing maternity clothes! I am thinking only a couple more weeks... if that! I am living in sweat pants the second I get home from work and take my uniform off! Lol I actually can't wait to get a little baby bump! I know I probably won't be saying that 5 or 6 months from now, but it is definately exciting to go through that change.

ALSO, I cant wait until I start feeling the baby! I thought maybe I felt something today like a flutter acroos my belly, but it was probably just gas or something. I am on a forum online with other girls who are also just as far along as me and a bunch of them have been talking about how they have already felt movement, BUT it is their 2nd or 3rd or more kid and they say you feel movement sooner with the more kids you have. My Dr. told me I probably wouldn't feel anything til like 18 - 20 weeks.

Ok well, that is all with my 12 week babbling for now! :)

Well there's no going back now.... Everyone knows!

Well, the world knows and if they don't know yet it won't be long before they figure it out!

We had our 12 week appointment yesterday. It went really well. I was VERY nervous! The Dr. went over my last ultrasound and over all my lab work. All my labs came back really well, which she was excited about. Then it was time to find the heartbeat with the doppler. She started on the left side and then nothing... I got kind of scared, but then she moved over to the right side and she found it... an amazing heartbeat! It was soo fast and strong! Such a cool sound! She said it was between 160 and 170 bpm. :)

After the apt. we made it facebook official. I mean pretty much as soon as it is on facebook, the entire world knows about it. That is just how it goes. I also told people at work today. It is nice to finally let the secret out, but I think it is also a bit scary knowing that EVERYONE knows! We have spent the past 12 weeks keeping it very close and just our little secret and now... the world knows!

More Berries Please!

I haven't really thought that I've been craving things... and I don't know if it is a craving or not, but lately I have been eating a TON of berries. Mostly Strawberries and Raspberries, with the occassional blackberry.

I swear I have eaten more berries in the last month or two than I have in my entire life! I could eat them every meal... but I don't. I eat them every morning, my staple is: cereal, greek yogurt and tons of berries. And a couple times a week I will have strawberry and raspberry shortcake for dessert and Mondays I make myself a Berry smoothie!

(I am drinking this one as I type! :) ) Lol I don't know what I am going to do when they are out of season! Ok the more I type the more I realize it is probably a craving! :)

I used to be really good at eating veggies... and lately not so much. I pretty much have to force myself to eat a vegetable and I am lucky if I get one serving a day... terrible, I know! But I was talking to Ryan's step mom and it makes perfect sense. Waggoners HATE veggies! So this kid is obviously a Waggoner and has already started influencing how I eat! :)

That being said. I will be 11 weeks tomorrow! 11! One more week and I will have survived my first trimester! I can't believe it! It seems to have gone by very fast! My pants are already starting to feel a bit tight, which makes me wonder how much longer I will be able to wear normal clothes!

Telling a couple more people...

Earlier this week we told Ryan's sisters. I really wish we would have video taped their reactions it was priceless! We told them via Skype. Ryan told them I had gotten my picture taken the other day and asked if they wanted to see it. They of course said yes and kept asking what for and Ryan held up the ultrasound picture. They both put their hands over their mouths and starting jumping up and down screaming, Jackie's pregnant! Lol. It was really cute! When they calmed down they wanted to know if it was a boy or a girl, twins like them, if we were going to name it after them and then Katie asked me if I was fat yet! Lol They were soo excited and I know they didn't get much sleep that night. Their step mom told my that they already told everyone at school and they have discovered that they are going to be the ONLY Aunts because I am an only child! Soo cute!

Today I told the two dads that I coach soccer with. I had planned on telling them before our season really kicked off, but I just never really had an opportunity until today. I keep telling them this might be my last season coaching for awhile and they both kind of freak out about it. So today I said I wasn't sure I'd be able to coach next season because I'd be like 7 and 8 months pregnant! They both looked at eachother and then gave me big ole hugs and started jumping up and down! Lol One of the guys is actually my next door neighbor... they are like the dream neighbors. The other I have just coached with for 3 years! They were soo excited it was funny! My neighbor was all excited about having a neighbor kid to corrupt! I told them to keep it a secret and then like an hour later in the middle of the game my neighbor came over and asked if he could tell his wife! Lol, I was like, ummm yes, of course! She actually just sent me a text and said she was excited to be a Neighbor Aunt! And their oldest kid loves pickles so she said if I ever need some pickles to just head over to their house! Too funny!

The more people we tell the more nervous I get. I am just soo scared that something might go wrong that the more people we tell the more nervous I get. The more people that know... the harder it will be if something goes wrong. I don't know... I guess I am just a chicken. I feel better after my next apt which is on the 25. 9 Days... but who's counting?! We will hear the heartbeat and I think they will measure everything to make sure everything is growing like it should. I will feel soo much better after they tell me everything is ok.

Grandparents

This weekend we decided we would tell our grandparents. My parents had been begging me to tell my grandma for weeks and I finally gave in.

I only have one grandparent left in my life, my dad's mom, who lives in California. The last time I saw her I was 13, but we call eachother every month, send letters and pictures as a way to keep in touch. I was kind of nervous to tell her, but my dad kept telling me that she probably already knew cause she was kind of psychic. He was totally right. I didn't even have to tell her, When she answered the phone and found out it was me she immediately asked me if I was pregnant! Lol. That was easy! She is already looking for yarn to start knitting me a blanket!


Yesterday we met Ryan's grandparents in Albuquerque for brunch. We didn't know how we would tell them, but I brought the ultrasound picture and figured we could just show that to them. We waited until they finished eating and then Ryan told them that I had gotten my picture taken a couple weeks ago and showed the picture to his grandpa. I swear his grandma's eyes almost popped out of her head! She was soo excited! The last time we saw them they kept talking about how they couldnt wait to be great-grandparents so it was neat to tell them that it was going to happen sooner than they thought! They made us take a picture and Ryan's grandma was going to put the picture in her scrap book as the day they found out about the great grandbaby! Lol :)

I discovered something this weekend. Our kid is going to be VERY spoiled! It will be the first grandkid AND the first great-grandkid on BOTH sides of the family! Scary!

We were also planning on telling Ryan's sisters this weekend, but we didn't end up having time. I am hoping we will be able to Skype them tonight and tell them! I know they are going to be excited beyond words and they will be the best Aunties ever!

This week marks our first double digit, we are 10 weeks!! Baby has graduated from an embryo to a fetus! I can't believe it! I am soo thankful and feel soo blessed!

Making Sacrifices for my little Grape

So this might sound a little silly, but today I realized just how much my life is going to change and how I am going to make some specific sacrifices once I become a mother.

I am a soccer coach. It is something that I LOVE doing. I have coached for almost 3 years, 2 teams (15 kids each) every season for 6 seasons. That is a lot of kids! We had our soccer coach meeting yesterday and I realized that I might not be able to coach next season because I will be huge and then I thought about it and I might not be able to coach for a very long while because... I am going to have a kid! Lol I know that sounds funny... but it is the first thing that has made me realize that my life is going to be soo very different.

The other thing that happened yesterday after the meeting was I was told I should be the assistant coach for the high school soccer team. In fact I actually had a parent who is also a coach tell me that I would make a great high school coach because all of the kids respect me. Umm... OMG, I would LOVE more than anything to coach high school soccer. I slept on it and this morning I was like, I wonder if it could work. I love the kids I coach and I know all the kids going into high school this year so I would love nothing more than to see them succeed at high school soccer and get the opportunity to coach them through it... but umm... hello... I am pregnant! Lol Luckily I have coworkers to remind me of this reality.

The truth is, the timing just isnt right. As much as I would love to coach high school it just isn't the right time. Guess I will have to wait until this kid is old enough to play high school soccer before I coach. At least I will only have to wait until this kid is 3 before I coach AYSO kids again! lol

I am really going to try to fully enjoy all of this soccer season because I know this could be my last time coaching for a long time. HOWEVER, I can't wait until my little grape is big enough for me to start teaching it soccer! I hope I am not one of those psycho soccer parents... but it may already be too late! :)

9 weeks

Today I am 9 weeks pregnant. My uterus is the size of an orange and baby is an inch long or the size of a green grape. It has fingers and toes already and its organs are all formed! Amazing!

One thing that I thought I would be really good about while pregnant was exercising. I started Zumba this summer and was going several times a week I thought it would be something really fun to do even after I was pregnant. We also bought a treadmill for new years and before I got pregnant I was running every morning and I swore I would still get up and at least walk every morning... neither of which is really happening.

The first couple weeks I found out I was still going to Zumba... I freaking love zumba and have soo much fun there. BUT I don't really care to do Zumba by myself and a lot of my friends that used to go have bailed on me. Also, my boobs have grown and kind of hurt... so jumping around and dancing wasn't always that pleasant, plus I was scared of over heating or over doing it so I just kind of stopped going. Although I have been going through withdrawals! Lol

I still get up and walk on the treadmill, but only about once or twice a week instead of every day. I haven't noticed myself being more tired, but I do find it harder to get up in the morning and most mornings I would rather sleep in 20 extra minutes than walk on the treadmill!

The one way I am still exercising is at work. As a park ranger I have to do some hiking. So I have at least been hiking a couple times a week still. I have heard that you feel kind of amazing during you second trimester, so I am HOPING to be able to walk and exercise more then. I just want to be as healthy as possible for me and for the baby.

On a different subject, we have been waiting to tell most people that we are pregnant and had wanted to wait until our first trimester is over with to announce it to the world. Ryan felt bad because he had missed work to come with me to a few Dr. apts so he told his boss that we were expecting. Well I guess his boss didn't know to keep it a secret and has kind of blabbed it all over the mine. I am a little scared about this mostly because there are some people at the mine that are friends with Ryan's family and I really dont want them to find out and then tell his family before we get a chance to. BUT I still don't want to tell them until our first trimester is over! Lol... Oh what to do!

8 weeks

This week baby is the size of a kidney bean and more than a half-inch long.

I have been feeling pretty crappy this week, but I don't think any of that is pregnancy related. I thought it was just a really bad case of allergies. But this morning I think it might be turning into a sinus infection and I will probably need some antibiotics to kick this. I will try to get into the Dr. tomorrow... but until then at least I was able to get some quality sleep last night... which is one thing I haven't had in days! (Guess I better get used to that!)

This morning I was reading my preggars books while walking on the treadmill and I was reading about pregnancy weight gain. I know a lot of people actually loose weight their first trimester because they are soo sick. That has not been the case for me. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror the other day and I was like yuck, I have gained all kinds of weight and I know my pants are fitting a little tighter already. BUT today I went on the scale... I was a bit nervous... but surprisingly I hadn't gained any weight! In fact I was a lot lower than I was expecting to be. I guess maybe I am just a bit more bloated or something? I dunno, but I was happy to know I haven't gained anything... yet!

The most beautiful sight...

Today I saw the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my entire life. During our ultrasound today we got to see the baby's heart beat... which I am pretty sure is the neatest thing I have ever seen in my entire life. The ultrasound itself was not that exciting, it looks like a blob and you can't really tell what it is, BUT amidst that little blob was a flicker of a heart beat. :) And Relief! Soo thankful for that little heartbeat, I have been soo scared and nervous that we wouldn't see the heartbeat or something might wrong, but seeing that flicker today reassured all my fears. I know we are not out of the water yet... and the ultrasound tech made sure to tell me that lol... but seeing the heartbeat is a big step and huge milestone.

So the ultrasound put me at 7 weeks (I knew it!) and put my due date at Nov. 8, 2011. And here is the picture of our blob!

Well that was interesting....

Today was my first OB apt. I have been waiting for this apt. for what seems like FOREVER... but really it has only 3 weeks! I was soo anxious about it, it was ridiculous! I woke up this morning at 5 to pee (I usually wake up every morning at 4 to pee, but I guess I slept in an hour this morning)and I realized that I had my apt. this morning and then could not go back to sleep... oooh the anxiety!

Ryan and I got there for our 9:20 apt. and checked in. They then tell us that the Dr. just called and is doing an emergency c-section and won't be back for at least an hour. So we decided to go to breakfast and then come back. We come back, check in again, they call me back give us a room and we wait like 30 minutes. They come back and tell us she is going to be another hour late. Ugh... Cue the tears... I was soo frustrated. I had waited 3 looong weeks for this apt. and it just wasn't happening! Lol I know, I am lame. Her office was very nice and felt bad for us and the fact that Ryan essentially had to take the entire day off of work just for this apt. They told us to come back after lunch and they would try to squeeze us in and they did... thankfully!

My Dr. is soo funny. She has seen me twice now and she recognized my name, but it didn't click to her who I was until she saw my face. She walked into the room said Hi, looked at my chart and then looked back up and said, "Really? You are pregnant?! Oh My Gosh!" Lol. I then thanked her for convincing me to start temping because I am pretty sure that is what did it for us.

After getting some basic information from us she based my due date on my last cycle, instead of my ovulation date. Her estimates were that I was 9 weeks along... even though my estimates from my ovulation date have me at 7 weeks. She brought out her doppler to try and hear the heartbeat which she said she can usually pick up around 9 weeks. She didn't hear anything. I wasn't too upset because I knew I wasn't 9 weeks along. She I think really wanted to have a look-see so she brought in her old and pretty crappy ultrasound machine. She found my uterus and the sac and I think she found the baby... but the picture wasn't clear and was very grainy. She was having a hard time seeing it... so as you can imagine so were we. I started laughing at one point cause Ryan was like, is the baby to the left or the right or in the middle? And FYI, when you laugh as you are getting an abdominal ultrasound, it doesn't really work! Lol

Anyway she is sending me for a REAL ultrasound tomorrow at the hospital. I am hoping it will go better than todays and it will help ease my fears a bit! And I also secretly hope they will send me home with a beautiful picture. :)

7 weeks

Today I am 7 weeks and baby is the size of a blueberry. Still pretty small, but considering the first week I found out the baby was the size of a sesame seed, I'd say it's grown quite a bit!

I am still feeling good... which scares the crap out of me. In fact there were several times this week that I just forgot completely that I was knocked up and then I would remember and go, Oh Yeah. I mean I guess that is a good thing and I should be very thankful that I have been feeling well, BUT it kind of scares me that maybe something is wrong.

On that note, my first prenatal apt. is Tuesday. 3 days away! I have been looking forward to this appointment for what seems like forever.... but I am also pretty scared that something is going to go wrong or that maybe we get some bad news. Also because I haven't really had many symptoms, I think I have kind of been in denial a bit and it will be nice to actually have a Dr. confirm it! I hope we get to see an ultrasound, that would make my day and totally reassure a lot of my fears! But I know my Dr. doesn't have an u/s equipment there. They told me that they bring in someone from Alb. every Monday, which means I would have to wait another 6 days after my apt. for the u/s. BUT they could send me to the hospital to get a different type of u/s. So I guess I will just have to wait and see.

Ok enough babbling, I have to go to work and then have a weekend get-away with my friend Katie, which will hopefully help keep my restless mind off of my apt. on Tuesday!

The picture

Ok, lets take a picture, 1, 2, 3 We're Pregnant! Lol Here's the picture!

My mom already asked me to not show anyone this picture because she had put her hair up (she never wears her hair up! lol) plus she is crying in it. But she will get over it! :)

6 weeks and 3 days

Today I am 6 weeks and 3 days. Supposively my uterus is the size of a plum and and baby is the size of an orange seed!

Today also marks exactly one week until my Dr.'s apt! I can't wait to go to the Dr. just for some peice of mind that everything is ok.

We gave in last week and decided we would tell my parents. We went to Socorro this weekend and told them in person. I had really wanted to wait until we had an ultrasound picture and then frame it in a frame that said grandma/pa on it and wrap it up to give to them as a present. But we couldn't wait. I still hope to tell Ryan's family with a framed ultrasound picture, especially since we are going to have to mail it to them, I think it will be a neat way to tell them!

I still feel good. Besides, peeing more, some bloating and sore boobs I don't really feel pregnant. I could totally be on that show, I didn't know I was pregnant! Lol

Week 5

According to the internet I am 5 weeks today! I have gotten up the past 3 nights to pee around 4 or 5 in the morning and have had some epicly creepy dreams! (Dreams including: Old homeless men wandering my house and smelling it up and crazy dance parties!) This afternoon after lunch I got my first run in with nausea. Which I am happy to report after previously feeling no symptoms! We are cautiously optimistic and excited. We have told a handful of our closest friends and nobody else. Although part of me is DYING to tell everyone and another part of me wants to wait patiently.... we will see which side wins! 17 days til my first apt!

My first prenatal apt. is March 22. Which feels like an eternity... (20 days... not that I am counting!) I should be at least 7 weeks, if not more by then, so the good thing is I should get to see the heartbeat in the u/s! My problem is my cycles were kinda long... so I am not exactly sure when my estimated due date will be. If you base it on my ovulation date it would be November 5, if you base it on my last period it would be like October 25. Can you say Halloween Baby? Lol I bet my due date is more likely to be in November.

So I still have no symptoms... not that I am complaining.... ok I am! lol It would just make me feel better if I was having some symptoms because then I would know things were happening like they were supposed to and it would make me feel better! Maybe week 5 will bring me some symptoms! FX! :)

Still can't believe this! I just hope and pray that everything is ok and can't wait til this starts feeling REAL!

Wow...

I don't really know how to start this, other than I cannot believe I am actually writing this.... but after 8 months of TTC we unexpectedly got our our BFP yesterday morning.

After my Dr. apt last month I was temping and using OPKs. It was the first time in the 8 months we were trying that I KNEW without a doubt exactly when I ovulated. I did not think I was pregnant, in fact I was pretty dissappointed because it was the best chances we've probably had and I felt perfectly normal. Unlike all the other months were I swear I am making up all kinds of symptoms and think for sure this is it and nothing... this month I felt completely normal. BUT I decided to test because we were going to a banquet that night and I wanted to know if I could have some cocktails there or not.

I peed on the stick, walked away and then came back to check on it and couldn't believe my eyes. Was that a second line there or was I imagining it? I took a picture with my phone, looked at the picture and yes, there was definately a second line. I ran to wake up my husband and I asked him do you see a second line? He, in his half asleep state looks at it foggy eyed and says, yeah I think so... but I don't think he really believed it. I uploaded the picture to the computer and posted it on this preconception forum that I have been on for 8 months now and when I had the first stranger on the forum tell me I better drink water that evening because that was a definate BFP... I was floored. Of course I was still kind of in shock... so I went to the store during my lunch break and bought a digital test... after all there is no denying that! Went home and immediately peed on it and the most beautiful word popped up:

(Yes, I took a picture... hey, it is exciting stuff!)

I am still nervously excited, but I also know that miscarrages are very common and I have just been praying that everything is ok. I am still pretty early so I probably won't be able to get into the Dr. for at least a week or two, BUT I am going to call just to find out tomorrow morning.

According to the internet I am 4 weeks pregnant... the baby is the size of a poppy seed and I am due Novemeber 4. WOW I still can't believe I am typing this.

You get soo used to dissappointment every month it is hard to believe it is real when it really happens to you!

I have been asking the Lord to bless us with this for months now and the only thing I can think of is this verse from the bible:

Ask and it shall be given unto you, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened up to you... :)

Go Big or Go Home.

So I went to the Lady Doc last week. I was really nervous about it because she was a new doctor for me and I thought she was going to tell something was wrong with me. She was amazing and really related to me. She had infertility problems and a very hard time getting pregnant, so she said she knew EXACTLY what I was feeling and going through. Boy do I love female doctors! lol

She wasn't alarmed by my super long cycles because I still get a period, so she believes I am still ovulating. She wants me to start temping, doing the basal body temperature so I know for sure when I am ovulating.

So I went to the store and bought a basal thermometer and I have started temping aleady. I have this cool fertility app on my phone that keeps track of it all for me and even graphs it! Totally cool!

I also just purchased OPKs (ovulation predictor kits). I figured might as well go all out! I really have nothing to loose! I bought two different kinds one is a cheapy kind that they sold in a box of 20s and the other I bought are the clear blue kind. Those are nicer, but more expensive. I figured I will use the cheapos and when I get a positive or something close I will use the clear blues to verify. Hopefully that works out for me! I am excited to give this a try.

Here's hoping it will all pay off!

The hard life of being hopeful

Every month something happens that makes me think, well maybe this is the month. I guess that is a good thing because you have to keep hope, right?

This month it was my sense of smell. We had some issues at work with toxins coming into the building due to a roofing project. They reopened the building and I could still smell the toxins. Nobody else could. I thought I was going crazy because I still smelled it VERY strong and nobody else smelled a thing. Turns out I wasn't going crazy and the building is now closed again until the toxins are gone. A couple days later my coworker made some disgusting food in the microwave. I walked in the office and the smell was soo bad I could barely handle it. I had to keep the doors open and it was still bad. I ended up going to the park service office becuase the smell was just gross. When I went over there one of my friends there joked that I had quite the pregnancy nose with all the smelling I did last week.

Of course with a comment like that I started thinking, well maybe I am. That particular day I thought maybe I had peed a bit more than usual and then that night I came home and fell asleep at 6:30(which I NEVER do, I am more of a midnight girl). So naturally, I started thinking I was pregnant.

Well, I still haven't gotten my Aunt Flo, but I woke up this morning feeling like she was coming and according to my calendars she will be here tomorrow. It kind of sucks getting all worked up every month over something stupid and small like smelling toxins and your coworkers onion soup for breakfast. I wish I didn't do that to myself. Yet, I'd like to stay hopeful because you never really know. Maybe one of these months I won't get my hopes up because I will actually be pregnant. Until then... I don't know.

Well, I haven't written on this blog because I really just haven't had much to say. We lucked out this month because Ryan took lots of vacation during the holidays and I *think* I ovulated during that time. I was very relaxed this month because we were both on vacation and enjoying the holiday season that I would think I would have a pretty good shot, however I am thinking it didn't happen. Aunt Flow is supposed to come in 5 days and I feel absolutely wonderful. No symptoms whatsoever. So it looks like it will be onto our 7th month of trying! Lol.

I do have my annual apt. this month. I believe it is on the 20th of January. It is with a new dr and I have heard she is very thorough. Which I can only imagine is a good thing, with all things considered. I know at my age it really isn't an issue until it takes longer than a year of TTC, but it couldn't hurt to have her make sure all my levels are good and I am normal. :)

private

I am thinking of making this blog completely private again. I just don't write in it that much because most of the time my posts are debbie downer posts and I don't want my followers to get freaked out... lol. So maybe I need to keep it just for me and I can write openly about what is going on and how I am feeling.

It has been 6 months since we started trying. Just a minor amount of time compared to some people, I know. I can't believe it has been 6 months, it has really flown by, but I of course did not expect this process to be soo long. Regardless, I know God will make it happen when it is supposed to happen. FX for this month and that we get our Christmas miracle, but if not I have my annual lady dr. apt. in January, with a new (and highly recommended) Dr. here in Grants, who I am anxious to tell about our TTC process and make sure all my levels are code 4.

That is all. ;)

I haven't posted in awhile. Mostly because I had really high hopes for this month and didn't want to jinx it. Unfortunately that didn't matter because my AF showed up right on time. I think the main reason I really wanted it this month was because the news would have come just in time for our anniversary. I *thought* I felt implantation. I had some cramping 5-7 days after I *thought* I ovulated, so I kind of got excited. Also I was a bit quesy on and off this month... maybe that was just from Turkey overload? lol.
I wonder what it will feel like when I am REALLY pregnant.

I have to make an apt for my annual lady visit for January. I guess that would be a better time than ever to bring up the fact that we've been trying for 6 months with no results. I'd like to also get my thyroid checked, just to make sure that is ok. (My mom has thyroid problems, so you never know and I have gained 10 pounds since coming of BC, so I figured it wouldn't hurt to check.)

Oh yeah and on a happy note, Ryan and I celebrated our anniversary yesterday. It was the 2 year married and 8 years together anniversary. :)