When to have another baby

I've been asked like a million times over the past few weeks when we are having our next kid. I guess as soon as your kid is walking and talking people assume you need another. Now I'm not going to lie there have been quite a few instances lately where I've thought about another. Anytime i see a newborn baby my heart flutters. Colin is still my baby but he is soo big compared to a newborn and sometimes... Just sometimes I miss it. But then reality will hit and my crazy child will throw a tantrum and I'll be like... Nah, I'm good!!

Ryan is convinced that the perfect age gap is 4 years. That is what he and his brother are and they get along marvelously. Plus, that is all he knows... Well , that and his 13 year gap with his sisters. But ain't no way I'm waiting 13 years! As for me... I don't have siblings, so what do I know?!

I must admit I am a bit intimidated by the terrible twos. Colin has already started acting up a bit more and adding a baby to that scares me! I had initially thought maybe after he turned two we could try again. Last time it took 8 months of trying so if it is anything like that Colin very well might be 4 by the time he has a sibling! Lol But what if it happens right away and I'm too sick and pregnant to chase a wild crazy 2 year old around!! I think I will wait a bit, maybe try a little closer til 3 and just see how it goes.

But there are also other things to consider. Right now we still have 2 mortgages and only one income, so it is definitely not an ideal situation for another child. Another issue is Ryan's job. His mine is being sold in 3 years and the future of it is still up in the air. I'd hate to have 2 children, 2 mortgages and no jobs. Of course that is worst case scenario, but it is something to consider. I'd like to make sure our financial future is ok before I considered another.

So for now we will wait and enjoy our only child. But some day we would like him to be a brother and do all those cool sibling things that I never got to do!! I'm also really excited to have a baby again because I feel like with Colin I had no clue what I was doing. I didn't know how to breastfeed, how to hold him, change a diaper or swaddle. I was always second guessing myself and thinking I was doing everything wrong. Yet, here I am with a happy healthy 20 month old, so I obviously did something right! I'm excited for a second child so I can feel confident in my parenting from the very beginning and feel like I know what I'm doing!

Fashion post white AE shorts

I love American eagle, mostly because they fit me perfectly and I wear a size 6 there! Lol. I went shopping for my bday and wanted to get jean shorts. My sister in law suggested I try these white ones on and I didn't want to take them off!! I was in love! 

So here they are with a few different outfits. I was too lazy to use my fancy camera and Ryan put up a full length mirror in our closet, so these will have yo do! Lol. And don't forget the dressing room photo!! Lol 

Royal Baby is coming!

I'm totally excited about the Royal baby. Why? I don't really know. I've been obsessed with the royal family since I was a kid. My mom bought me a book on the Princess Diana and her boys... so we can go ahead and blame this obsession on her. I believe I am in between the two boy's age and  I used to dream I would marry one of them... Didn't every little girl??  Anyway, I grew up and realized I probably wouldn't marry them and  met my own prince... Ahhh... plus William is going bald and Harry seems a little wild.

It is an exciting time in history. A royal baby, an heir to the thrown. This kid, whoever he/she is, is our future and is going to a very powerful and adored individual. Judging by this kid's mother, I'm assuming it will be the best dressed kid around and not only will clothes be a trendsetter, but the baby's name and everything else they do will be!

I'm secretly hoping Kate becomes a breastfeeding advocate. If anyone could change breastfeeding, it could be her. People look up to her all over the world and I think she could really change the perspective of it. If only I could call her and tell her that... although now may not be a good time...

So stay tuned people... the baby is coming today.

Update: HE is here!! 

http://blogs.babycenter.com/celebrities/prince-william-kate-middleton-welcome-a-boy-name-not-known-0722201/

I'm back!!

Whew! What a whirlwind of a few weeks! I've literally driven to Albuquerque and back FIVE times in the past few weeks! I'm beyond over that drive and traveling and so happy to be home!

We enjoyed spending time with our families, but I think we are secretly ready to be back to our normal routine and family of 3.

My jogging stroller got a flat about 2 weeks ago and so my exercise went out the window. I did a few online videos, a few swimming sessions with the sister in laws and one day of hiking, but nothing regular. That and with 2 teenage girls visiting... I ate a lot of ice cream that I normally do not eat! So... needless to say I gained some weight. Boo!! But Ryan and I both ran this weekend and we were back to our normal diet and I've already lost 2 pounds! Woo Hoo!

Colin has been a holy terror since we've been home. I'm not sure if it is terrible twos starting or if he is just adjusting to being back home without company. Either way it is not fun. Today is going a little better, so I'm hoping it was just an adjusting phase!

I've got a few topics I'd like to blog about so, stay tuned!!  That a few fashion posts up my sleeve!

Phone dump!!

Sister in laws are still visiting so I haven't had much blogging time!! Here are pictures! I got a swing for the backyard for my bday, which is awesome! Took the girls shopping, for pedicures and hiking and boy was hiking an experience!!! It not only dumped rain, but hailed on us!!! 

4 th pictures!!!

AUNTIES

We are having soo much fun hanging out with Ryan's sisters! Yesterday we did a photo shoot at a park, went swimming and then had Froyo!!  Can you say perfect day... oh yeah and Colin slept until 10 this morning... guess we wore him out! Lol 

Here are some of the pictures from our nephew/aunt photo shoot!!

Birthday weekend

 Well I am officially 28 years old...er young????!!! Lol 

We had a mild 4th and barbecued at home, drank some wine and lit a few sparklers for Colin. He was asleep before the fireworks shows, so I guess we will save fireworks for next year. 

We had a nice lunch on the 5th, my actual bday, before heading to Albuquerque. We picked up my brother in law for the weekend and then the next day picked up my sister in laws. They get to stay with us for a little over a week! I am soo stoked to spend time with them ! 

We had a nice bday dinner and a coldstone dessert courtesy of my good friend Dawn!  I had more ice cream this weekend than I have in months!! But I will exercise like a mad woman this week to make up for it! 

Here are some pictures of our fun weekend! I feel very blessed to have such great family and friends!!

Love

The love I have for my child amazes me everyday. 

We've had a rough several weeks having 2 funerals in 2 weeks. The first being Ryan's great grandma and the second being Ryan's college roommate. 

Ryan's great grandma's funeral was sad, but she lived a very long and fruitful life. Ryan's college roommate was another story.

Seeing a family lose their son at a young age was incredibly hard. Perhaps even harder was watching a mother mourn her child. Parents aren't supposed to lose their children. That just isn't how it is supposed to work, but sometimes life isn't fair. 

But it definitely puts things into perspective. I was thinking on our drive home that I am not even sure I knew what love is or how much I could love someone until I had a child. Sure I loved my family and I loved my husband, but I'm not sure that love quite compares to the love I have for Colin!

He is a part of me. A peice of me. 

Not only that, but my heart explodes with joy when I see him learn, love and laugh. 

He is my world and I never knew this world existed before him.  

The past few weeks made me squeeze my loved ones a little tighter. Life is too short and you will never know when your time is up. I am soo incredibly happy that I get to stay home with Colin right now and watch him learn and grow everyday. These are years I will never get back and I treasure every moment! I am so lucky that this is my reality and my life. I feel more blessed than I could ever imagine. 

I've changed more in the past 2 years than I have in the 28 Ive been alive and I owe it all to motherhood. It has taught me more than I can put into words, but the most important thing is selfless, unconditional, crazy LOVE.

So soak it all up, every single minute of it because life is short and comes at you fast!