Thursday, January 31, 2013

Home

What makes a home a home?

As I sit here staring at my bare walls and floor covered in moving boxes, I can't help but think that my home, without all this stuff... Almost naked on the inside... is now just a house, not home anymore.

I keep wondering when our new house will feel like home and not somebody else's home or not just a house. We haven't even gotten there yet, but to me, when I see it in my head it is someone else's. hopefully as we get settled in it will slowly become our home. I am super excited that we are putting in new carpet because I feel like it will make it more ours. The more little changes we can do to make it feel like our space the happier I will be.

I have my work cut out for me.... Poor Colin is sick and miserable. Our furniture and everything gets delivered on Monday... Ryan's first day of work. Luckily my folks are coming up to help us with the move, but they leave Tuesday. So I envision me with a bunch of boxes and a sick kid for the rest of the week! We also haven't set up our Internet yet so I maybe MIA for a bit! But I am excited to find a place for everything in our new house and to get organized!


Here's to turning a house into a home... One box at a time!

PS. I worry a lot about Colin getting reacquainted with a new house. I know he is young and he probably won't care, but I like to worry so... Yeah. I sure hope it doesn't affect him too much. But I know one thing he will love... Every room as low windows that look out our backyard and he is obsessed with our dog... So he should thoroughly enjoy that!

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

I love this community.... Not every day your departure makes the newspaper! Lol

Monday, January 28, 2013

Night weaning...

Last week we had a rough couple nights of sleep. Literally the same day that Colin only asked to nurse twice during the day... Twice, he just never asked for it.... He was up every single hour nursing that night! The next day we were up every hour as well. I was just tired of not sleeping and so I decided I would try night weaning.

I initially was going to start on Colin's sleep after we moved, but with both Ryan and I having this week off, I figured what better time to start.... Rather than like Ryan's first week of work.... having him hear Colin crying all night or something.

I started Friday night and every time Colin woke up and asked for milk I told him the milks were sleeping and he had to wait until the morning. That first night he woke up 6 times asking for milk. He would only cry for maybe a minute before going back to sleep and I just slept with him on the spare bed in his nursery. The next night he woke up 4 times and then last night 2 times. Last night when I told him the milks were sleeping he didn't even fuss and just went right back to sleep!

Here is hoping this is a good start to sleeping longer than a few hours at a time!

Friday, January 25, 2013

No more work...

Today was my last day of work and I must admit it was quite bittersweet.

I seriously work for the best agency ever, I am so spoiled and truly loved my job and (most of) the people I worked with.

Over the past two days I have been showered by gifts, cards, hugs and kind words by almost everyone I have ever worked with. It really doesn't get any better than that... T know that you will be missed and were loved and appreciated. It is something that is sure hard to walk away from. But at the same time... Change is good and something we all need and I am excited for my new adventure.

Someone asked me today if I was sad and I quickly said, No! But I have been thinking of that all day. No, I am not sad yet, because I am excited about our new adventure, but I know I will be sad.... It just hasn't me yet. I will be sad in a few weeks, I am sure... When I am all alone and pulling my hair out chasing after a toddler... I am sure I will miss it... But then he will smile or give me a big wet kiss and he will help lessen my sadness. That is what kids are good for, always to help lighten the mood. I am confident I am doing the right thing. I know it may not always be easy, but what in life worth caring about is?

So onward and upward. I will not cry because I am happy and smiling that it happened and I had an excellent ride!

Friday, January 18, 2013

14.5 month update!

I thought I'd do a little update on Colin... I miss doing his monthly updates.  :(



At 14 months old... he is SOO much fun!! I love this age!

He waves Hello and Bye Bye.  He makes the sign for no more or all gone ALL the time (when you take something away from him, when he drops something or moves something or walks away from something! The other day he threw his toy in the trash can and walked over to tell me it was all gone and then the next day he put his fire truck in the drier and came to get me to rescue it, while pointing ot the drier and making the sign for all gone!) He is still making the sign for milk very religiously. He also claps his hands and gives head butts... courtesy of our next door neighbor.

He isn't saying words yet, but he is DYING to talk. He jibbers all day long saying all kinds of lovely nonsense.  He does bark like a dog and say Brrrr... when he gets cold.

He knows where his head, hair, ears, eyes, nose, tongue, belly, hands and feet are and can identify them not only on himself but on other people/things.  He gives hugs and kisses and loves.

He is soo active. He just walks around looking for things to do and playing with his toys is not sufficient for vrey long.  He prefers taking everything out of my cabinets and drawers, feeding the dog, taking the balls out of the pool table... and right now he is walking around the house pulling the broom behind him... hey maybe he is getting a bit of sweeping done, I'm not complaining! Lol   He loves to climb everything and anything and tries to run everywhere too.

He still isn't sleeping well (I plan to work on that after we move)  But he falls asleep in his crib every night, just doesn't stay that way for long. He was sleeping 3-4 hours at a time in his crib, but that changed to just two over the past few weeks... BUT he is cutting molars, maybe thats why?? But I feel like a more functional human being so I must be getting some sleep!

He loves most fruits, green beans, broccoli, oatmeal and cheese... especially cream cheese. He drinks whole milk really well and has put on good weight since he turned one! At his one year appointment he was 18 lbs. I weighed him this morning and he was 21! That is incredible! Lol I think he is at least 32 inches tall because he was about 30 at his one year apt. But I that is just a guess. He is finally wearing 18 month clothes and in size 4 diapers.

I love him so much! He is such a happy little boy. He loves to be the center of attention and dance and do silly things, just like his silly grandpas! I know I will have a little clown, he is such a character!

Ok, I guess that is all for now!





Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Our new home?!

If all goes as planned, THIS will be our new home in a few weeks. It is a bit smaller than our current home, but not by much. I like its different layout and it has a sweet master bath and giant walk in closet. :)

I really love the neighborhood, it is quiet and away from town, and a great place to raise kids! I can't wait to move, but wish we could sell our house soon!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

SAHM

So I made a HUGE decision.

I have decided that when we move I am not going to work and I am going to spend my days staying home and loving on Colin... while he still lets me know.

I know that their time when they are little is soo short and I dont want to miss out on it anymore. I feel like jobs will come and go, but this time with Colin won't last forever.

I have been super giddy since I've made the decision. I looked up activities that Colin and I can do together in Farmington and there is so much. ... They have a huge library, a children's museum and a giant aquatic center.  Plus I learned this weekend that there are over 50 parks... 50!!!!  The town I live in now probably has 5! Lol  I can't wait for it to warm up a bit so we can go explore all the parks!

So that is my news. To me it is HUGE and I am very excited!  :)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

An Extended Breastfeeder...

Well, I guess I am officially an extended breast feeder.  Honestly I never thought I'd be here in this "category".   Heck, my initial breastfeeding goal was only 3 months... I said 6, but in reality I would have been happy if I made it 3 months. Now I'm still nursing my 14 month old.

I am having a rough time with this new category. I feel like there isn't much support for those who choose to breastfeed longer than a year.  Over the holidays it was suggested by both sides of the family that I should stop nursing and I know my husband is starting to think we've gone on with this too long as well.  Maybe I'm weird, but I don't feel like I'm ready to quit... and Colin sure as heck isn't ready either.  He has cut back since we introduced whole milk, but he still nurses quite a bit, especially if he is teething. It is a comfort thing, I know.  I'd like weaning to be a nice slow gradual process... not like a sudden, oh yeah, those milks you like... they are gone forever... sorry kid. Kinda process.

It is weird... I feel like nursing is all we know and I'm afraid to give that up. How will I get him to fall back to sleep so easily at night when he wakes up... OR will he wake up less because he isn't nursing and knows he won't have those comforts anymore?  I just don't know.

I do know that I still feel comfortable nursing him and love our bonding time and closeness that we get to share and I just don't quite feel ready to give that up, especially with a big move coming up.

Once we move I am going to try to cut back on night time nursing and work on getting this kid to sleep a bit better. I don't mind getting up and nursing him once... maybe even twice a night... but anything more than that needs to stop.... so I can regain some sanity.

I just wish people would be more supportive about nursing and nursing past one.  And I wish people would support me as I continue on. I don't know how long we will go. It would be nice to get my body back, but for now this is what I'm doing and anyone who doesn't like it, will just have to deal with it. :) Lol  I am an extended breast feeder and proud of it!  Just don't say anything about it to piss me off! Lol

Sorry for the randomness of this blog... my mind is a mess today! :)

Thursday, January 3, 2013

To Work or Not to Work... THAT is the question

Since we decided we were moving I've been having a major debate with myself. Should I stay home with Colin or should I work?  I literally go back and forth on a daily basis. Why is this decision so hard?

At first I was all set to quit my job and never look back. I was envisioning a lovely life as a stay at home mom lounging around the house in pjs on our days home and  museum hopping on our days out. Sleeping in and taking afternoon naps together... oh the thought was so glorious!

THEN I got a phone call from the manager of my company in Farmington, basically saying he heard I was moving there and wanted me to work for him. He even talked about a position that would give me a raise. How do you say no to that?  Plus I am a government employee and have been working with this company for almost 10 years. Hard to throw that away too.

I hate the idea of dropping Colin off with strangers. We've been so spoiled here with a wonderful lady who watches him and I know that they both love and care about each other very much and I don't ever worry about him when I drop him off. I see him laugh with her and hug her and I know he has a great time while I am at work.  Until I find THAT I don't think I will be happy about the idea of working.

I WISH I could work part time. Although it isn't looking like that will be an option for me there, which stinks. I feel like part time is my happy medium so I can both be a mommy and stay with my career. So I then feel like I have to choose between working and staying home.  I don't need to work, but I like to work. 

My other option is leaving the government and finding a part time job doing something else, but still working and just being part time.

I've decided to wait to make a full on decision until we move and get settled and I investigate some of the day cares and such there.

Although I hate waiting and I hate that this is so hard. I wish there was an easy solution. But nothing in life is easy.  I just hope I don't have any regrets with whatever I do decide.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Our big news...

So our big news is that in 2013 we will be moving. My husband got offered a job in Farmington, NM so that is where we will be headed to in a few weeks time.

This is very bittersweet for me. I am very excited for this opportunity for his career and for him. I am excited to move to a bigger city that actually has more than 2 stores to shop in and more than 5 restaurants to rotate from. BUT I will miss life here. I will my our home... Colin's first home. I will my job and the flexibility it allows to be a mommy. I will miss all the friends we have made her over the past almost 5 years as well.  But I know we can take our friendships with us to our new town and make them come visit us and vice versa.

Moving is a little unsettling for me. All the unknowns. I was raised in the same house and in the same town throughout my entire childhood. Sure I moved around a bit while I was in college and stuff, but I prefer a sedimentary lifestyle. Moving scares me! Lol

But I'd rather move now while Colin is young... before he makes friends and such. He is too little now, everyone is his friend!   :)

Anyway I will blog more about our move and my job situation later!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Finally an Update!

I will be able to reveal our big news tomorrow!

On another note... we had a great Christmas and great New Years!

We went to visit our family for Christmas and had an Italian Christmas at my Uncle's house. We ate entirely too much, but it was wonderful! My favorite present was the ipad Ryan got me! I have been obsessed with it... to say the least! Lol.  Colin got waay more presents than he needs, but he has been enjoying them!! We put a bunch of presents he doesn't play with often or that he got for his birthday away in a big box... so he can focus on his Christmas presents and so our living room isn't as overwhelmed! :)  We will switch them out when he gets tired of his new presents!

Our New Years was great... we actually went on our second date since becoming parents! It was rather spontaneous. I just decided I'd ask the neighbor girl if she was free for a few hours and she was! (SCORE!) We were just going to go out to dinner... but Ryan wanted to go to the casino. I am proud to say I doubled my money. But the truth is I only play with 20 bucks! Ha!  :)  I love playing the roulette table because I can play with 20 bucks for a good hour and usually walk away even. I was TRYING to lose so we could leave and I hit big, winning 40 bucks! :)  Then I cashed out and we went home! Ryan did really well on the slots while I was running the tables too... so we both came out on top and had a lot of fun!


I've decided to make reasonable New Years Resolutions this year. Instead of ones that I will likely break a few weeks/months into the year.  So this year I want to:

  1. Go on more dates with my husband.
  2. Get Colin to sleep better.
  3. Get back into the 120's with my weight. (I am close... a few pounds off... so I SHOULD be able to accomplish it... I hope! Lol)
Do you have any resolutions?

Colin has been really funny lately. He finally learned to clap. He makes this cute sign with his hands when you say no more or all gone!  He is babbling like crazy and makes everyone laugh when he does it. He does a booty dance... which is really cute.  Lol  What else?   I switched him to size 4 diapers finally! We've been in 3's forever! And he wore his first 18 month outfit today!  Oh yes and he has been cleaning for me... if you give him a wipe or a paper towel he will find something to wipe up with it... his favorite is spitting  and wiping it up... total boy!  He also has been following directions very well. If  I ask him to get me something or do something 9/10 times he will do it! Which is really neat. Today, he put his truck in the drier and shut the door and then came to get me, pointing towards to drier! Always keeps me on my toys, that boy!

He has been falling asleep in his crib and he will stay there 3 or 4 hours every night... even when we were visiting family over the holidays he did it! Yay! 

Hope you all are well in this New Year and 2013 blesses beyond belief!   Stay tuned for our big news!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Sleep update

So I am doing a new thing with sleep...  I've been trying to get Colin to fall asleep on his own in his crib.  (That sounds a lot easier than it is.... ha!) If I leave the room he will scream uncontroallably for HOURS.... trust me... I try it on a regular basis. So instead I've been staying in his room until he falls asleep.

Most people (my husband included) will probably think I am crazy. I literally put him in his crib and then get a pillow and lay on the floor beside the crib. Sometimes it takes hours... sometimes 30 minutes. It is a battle of wills... but he has fallen asleep 5 times on his own within the past 2 weeks.
To me... that it is progress. He doesn't sleep long... anywhere between 2-4 hours usually.  But I'm hoping this whole falling asleep in his crib will help.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

I'm still alive!

Sorry i haven't blogged in forever!  We've had a lot of exciting things going on in our crazy busy life. I will update soon I promise!  :)

I've tried to upload photos for 2 days and blogger is being lame... so I can't even leave you with photos! Fail!  :(



Tuesday, November 27, 2012

South Carolina

Just returned from South Carolina yesterday for my Great-Uncle's Funeral. My mom, Colin and I had a very successful trip. I was very nervous about traveling with him since our most recent trip was a bit of a disaster and he got sick on the flight home, but this time he traveled very well. He won over the flight attendants on the way there and got some free snacks and then slept the entire trip home! :)


The trip itself was really good... or about as good as trip for a funeral can be. The thing about funerals is it tends to be a time where you get to see a lot of your family that you haven't seen in years.... which is sad, but true. We saw pretty much all of my mom's cousin from that side of the family and a lot of my second cousins and it was really neat seeing all the cousins together laughing and reminiscing about their childhood and all their memories.

Colin had a lot of fun with his cousins too. He made some quick friends with the younger ones when he I convinced them to chase him up and down the stairs at their house (we don't have stairs at our place, so this was a new fascination for him).  (And no, even through traveling and climbing stairs a million times, he never slept through the night there either... not even close!)

The funeral itself was really beautiful and it in this amazing church. I know everyone will miss my great Uncle Fred very much, especially his beautiful wife of 51 years. 

Here are some photos of the family together:

These are all my second cousins with my Great-Aunt

Me and my mom with all of her cousins

My great Aunt with all her daughters and neices and nephew

The Dudes, Colin with cousin Nick

Colin's new buddy!




My cousin Diane and her daughter Marisa wanted to take us to downtown Greenville to see the Christmas trees set up at the Hyatt. Well...  the trees weren't exactly set up and decorated, but we still took some pictures! Lol
                                    




My mom's other cousin, from the other side of the family lives about an hour and a half from where we were, so we also met her one day and her family about half way in between (and conveniently located near some outlet shopping!) This is my mom's aunt on the far left and Colin's Great-Great-Aunt! :)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Long Over due Phone dump!

Silly boy...

Mommy's lunchtime visit!

Hangin' with his cousin

My last article in the paper. I was excited they liked my photo they blew it up a lot! :).

Dancin' at momma's work!

Hey mom, buy more boots so I can play in the boxes... :)

Concentrated face... tongue out.

First thing in the morning. taking a picture to send to daddy to say good morning... this is what he does! Ha!

What? Do I have something on my face?

Sportin' his lobo outfit!

Morning hair. This picture makes me chuckle.

Nap time.
Matching lobo outfits. On our way to watch a soccer game.

playing with the exhibits at my mork.

Picked him up early from the sitters, he hadn't had a nap. Passed out in the car and I put him in his crib. He fell into his boppy pillow and snoozed with his jacket and shoes on!


Pumpkins are fun!

Watching our plane fly away...

Crawling around the airport...w hile we missed our flight! Lol

Bear bottom pjs

After his 1 year photo shoot


Sick boy

Halloween.
I cleaned colin's room... it looked like it did before we brought him home! lol


LOVES his birthday balloons

Someone just climbed onto the couch by himself.

Filling his cart with books... birthday presents!

Saturday, November 17, 2012

RIP Uncle Freddie

This morning I woke up to some sad news. My beloved Great-Uncle passed away early this morning. He was my Nana's brother.  Earlier this week he had his second heart attack in a year. Last year he had one right after Christmas and was sent home with a grim diagnosis of less than 6 months to live. We went to visit him in June and he looked great. He was in excellent spirits and  you couldn't even tell he had been sick. I feel so very blessed that we were able to visit him while he was healthy and that he got to meet Colin.

I initially wasn't intending on going to the funeral. After traveling to Cali last month, I really didn't want to to travel with Colin ever again  for a really long time! BUT I talked to my mom this morning and she really wanted to go to the funeral, but didn't want to go alone.... so we booked our tickets this afternoon. We are going back to SC. The sucky part is we are flying on Thanksgiving, but it was really the only choice we had so we could make all the arrangements. 

I have no idea how chaotic it will be to travel with Colin again, but I do know that once we get there he will have a TON of family to keep him occupied! I am excited to see some of my family from that side that I haven't seen in awhile and for them to meet Colin, but it sucks it is under these circumstances.

We will really miss my great uncle. He was such a neat person. He had a great life and has 4 beautiful daughters and loads of grand kids. His relationship with his wife is one that I strive for with my own marriage. They were each others best friends and just celebrated 50 years of marriage last year. I really admire both of them and they were so sweet together. I know my Great-Aunt is probably heart broken right now and my heart hurts for her.


From our trip to SC this summer... look how teeny Colin is and how happy my Great Uncle was!!


At my grandma's funeral... I look like I'd been crying for an eternity... I had been!

And an Oldie! I am on my great uncle's lap!! :) 3 of his 4 daughters are next to us with my cousins and my dad is next to us on the other side with my Great Aunt and my Uncle pete above!





Monday, November 12, 2012

Old friends

Today I met up with one of my old high school friends and her two beautiful kids at a children's museum in Albuquerque. I have actually known her since preschool... we went to preschool together and now our kids are playing together!! Crazy, right?  Lol We didn't become friends until middle school because she went to a private school before then and I went to public school, we were friends from middle school on up. She is one of the only people (besides my husband, ha!) that I keep in regular contact with from high school and I think it is because we have been on the same kind of life path.

We both went to college and then got married shortly after and then we both had babies. Most of our friends from  high school either are yet to be married or had kids super early. Either way I think it is so cool that we've stayed in touch and can reconnect when she comes back to NM to visit her family. It is so fun to see her babies and watch our kids grow up together! If only we lived closer!

Here are some photos of our visit. I wish I would have gotten a picture of her and I together or with our babies. Aww well, next time! I actually TOOK a picture of her and Colin, but my dang camera phone was acting up and now it has disappeared :(

Me with Colin and Serena. She will be 6 months next week and is the happiest baby. Colin loved her.

Noah on the left, Colin on the right at the childrens museum


Baby kisses and baby love!