babies?

Having a kid is probably one of the biggest decisions you could ever make, especially as a couple.

Ryan and I always knew we wanted kids. We were just waiting until we were ready and the perfect time. Well, we both have great jobs and big house that needs fillin' lol. So I figured what better time. Ryan had wanted to wait until he found out for sure that his job would be stable. Two weeks ago, he found that out. He got a promotion and found out he'd be here awhile. (Hooray! :)) To me that was IT, babymaking time! Well he hadn't said anything so I didn't bring it up. That weekend we got to meet up with his little sisters, they are 12. We hadn't seen them in 6 months and that has been very hard on us. When we left them and had to say goodbye I cried for the majority of the trip home. That was when Ryan decided to bring up the baby conversation. As if I wasn't emotional as it was. Hearing him say that he was ready to be a dad was the best words I think I've ever heard him say! I was extatic.

Then the reality hit, damn I just started a new BC cycle. LAME. When we finally realized we were ready, I wanted to start this process that instant. But unfortunately it doesn't work like that. I did my research and learned it was better to finish out my BC cycle before and not just stop cold turkey and then start the process. My Dr. said to go off BC for at least 3 months before you even start trying. Are you kidding me? That is a freaking eternity! I am just not sure I can wait 3 whole months. That would be the longest 3 months of my life. So I now have no idea. I am soo glad I am at least on the last step of the BC cycle. NO MORE BC! WHoo HOO! I can't wait for that. Maybe I'll actually loose some of that weight I put on 5 years ago when I went on... or maybe that is just wishful thinking!

So that is where we are now. playing the waiting game i guess. LAME. But what an exciting future. I just hope we will be lucky enough to be blessed with a child someday.